Life, man. It’s hard. You might be living the life you had imagined you always would, or a better one, or sometimes a worse one than you thought you might. Maybe you went down a completely different path than your parents, friends, yourself had wanted. Or maybe you are doing exactly as you wrote on a piece of paper back in junior high. Life, man it’s hard and real and great and tragic and deep and light and hopefully filled with love and laughter.
I grew up in a house of chaos. There wasn’t a lot of “normalcy” in my neck of the woods. There was disruption, confusion, lies, mistrust, loneliness, guard up, sometimes hands up. This is not meant to have anyone feel sorry for me, this isn’t pity party table for one. This is real life. In a moment of childhood weakness, upheaval feels like a sigh of relief. I hate this part of me, but it’s me. It’s the girl behind the lens, behind the cake, behind the blog. It’s the mom who does whatever she can to break a cycle, to control the chaos, to organize and plan and push for a real sense of security and normalcy. This is me, making up for the basic skills I lacked. There weren’t a lot of bbq’s, there were no hobbies and practices, not many vacations or happy memories. There was a life, my life, which made me who I am today. No matter how far we run from our roots, they are deep inside us, and sometimes they come up in a surprising way.
So that is my deep part of this post, the dark place in which I sometimes go. But here is something happy, something tasty, simple and delicious-strawberry jam. Many people are afraid to tackle jam, with the canning and the boiling, etc. But don’t be afraid, because you can tackle it, and this jam is so easy, so quick, but just as good as if you had spent days stirring in a hot kitchen with no ac. Make some jam, take time for yourself, and love those around you who might not seem like they need it.
1 bag of frozen strawberries, or half a pound of fresh strawberries
½ cup of sugar
2-3 tablespoons lemon juice
Chop the fresh strawberries, or puree the frozen strawberries in a blender until chunky pieces
Place strawberries, sugar, and lemon juice in a heavy saucepan or pot on med high heat with the lid on for 5-7 minutes.
Remove lid and stir until thicken, about 10 minutes more.
Place in cans or heatproof storage container and let cool to room temperature
Refrigerate for up to two weeks, freeze for a month or two